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[29 Aug 2004|10:10pm] |
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I MAKE YOU ANGRY?!?! DOOD SERIOUSLY FUCK YOU BUT JUST FUCKIN REMEMBER WHEN IM GONE, YOULL NEVER FUCKIN SEE ME B/C I THEN WILL NOT HAVE TIME FOR YOU. THEN YOULL SEE WHO REALLY GIVES A SHIT ABOUT YOU, ME OR THAT LITTLE FUCKIN SLUT GOODNIGHT.
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[28 Aug 2004|06:25pm] |
i read this in my friend lorraines journal.
"In other news, life's ok. Senior year is going really well for me. It makes me sad, though, reading about friends moving away, starting new lives. Everybody needs to learn to appreciate your friends while they still live 10 minutes away from, and not take it for granted."
yeah...
whatever. ill be gone soon, so yeah, you wont have to be reminded to call me anymore or make plans.
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[21 Aug 2004|12:49pm] |
I got a new journal. add it and ill add you back. thanks. ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) xballroomblissx
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[21 Aug 2004|12:06am] |
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im tired of being dissapointed in everything in my life. i probably wont see anyone for a while b/c im going to be spending alot of time working and with my grandma. biggest priorities right now..... good night.
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[20 Aug 2004|07:34pm] |
so i sat at the hospital all day, and i wanted to see patrick tongiht, but thats not gonn a happen now.
cool.
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[20 Aug 2004|07:15pm] |
i spent the whole day at the hospital. i was drying all morning, but shes doing better. im so happy. i love her so much. thank you for all the prayers you guys. its means the world. <333
me my dad and AUNT VERA *cough!* hahaha, we went to chilis for lunch, and all of a sudden JON APPEARS!!! i was like holy shit!!! and he gave me and big hug and stuff, it was soo bad ass. i remember when we ( dated ). i met his fiancee today! SHE IS SO CUTE! i love her awww. im so happy for him. yay.
i was thinking about patrick alot today and how much i truely love him. no matter how broken i feel i always am complete when i am with him or when i am talking to him. he us my EVERYTHING. i love him with all that is within me. if anything ever happened to him, i think i would die. thank you so much for always being there for me, and being the best friend i have ever had. i honestly cant thank you enough. you are one person who i never had to worry about anything with. i just love you so much. <3333
nite guys.
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[19 Aug 2004|10:55pm] |
so i am really sad about my grandma. i hope she makes it through the night. the security wouldnt let me in, even though theres blood coming out of her mouth. my poor grandma. i love her so much. i remember when she retired so she could take care of me while my parents worked, when i was little. i was it in front of the tv all day, and would watch nick jr and she would always make me tasty soup.
so tell me, why does a person of her sweetness have to go through so much agony? i pray god will take her, peacfully.
: (
i worked all day today. it was alright i suppose. im happy to be talking to andres again. he makes my day, everyday. everything he says is absolutly adorable. i feel so lucky.
i dyed my hair again tonight. i dont really like it, but whatever. im tired. im gonna call andres and go to bed. goodnight. <3
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[19 Aug 2004|08:56pm] |
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my grandma's kidneys are failing.
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[17 Aug 2004|05:28pm] |
holy shit i just found this sweet pic of me an georgie. aw aw. i miss him.
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[17 Aug 2004|01:47pm] |
MINE:
I miss you babydoll. xoxoxox.
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[17 Aug 2004|10:27am] |
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omfggggggggg a wedding story is so beautiful. IT MAKES ME CRY! AHGAHGAH
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[16 Aug 2004|10:39pm] |
ok let me start off my saying WOW! today was the best day ive had in sooo long. i was so happy.
* 1 got two more jobs (express and hale groves)
*i saw mr allen AND mr hinkle in the same day and i missed them both so much! AND finally got their email.
*i hung out with jon and jeff today
*I SAW CHARLIE AND JADE AND ZACH! i havent fuckin talked to charlie in FOREVER!! im so glad hes back. he wants to go to shows and shit with me, so itll be so fun. i cant wait.
*um um me and juan made plans to hang out all night on wens, that is gonna be so fun.
*mike zalukie?!?!? hahaha
now im going out to get something to eat with jonathan! WOO!
i miss andres ALOT.
i think about him all the time lately. i wonder how my moo is.
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[16 Aug 2004|03:31pm] |
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I GOT THE JOB AT EXPRESS! IM SO CUTE! today was awesome. i got the job, jeff came over and then jon and we went to the mall and had sooo much fun. aurdey and amber was there. i told audrey not to move but shes gonna anyways hahaha. then we had to go cuz me and jon both had to work and we were running late. um um oh YEAH hahaha. amber tried to act REAL TUFF and tried to "approach" me. it was funny. she kept lookin at me. OK i just got a job at express retard LIKE im going to hit you in the mall! GET OVER IT hahaha. but i must admit, i wanted to give her one right in the jaw. damnnnnn. that would have been funny. me and jon were makin fun of how her ass looked lik eit was eating her pants HAHAHAHA. IT LOOKED SOOO NASTY. then i told her that she was ugly and i couldnt look at her nasty ass face anymore, then we left. eventfull day! yaya! now i have to go to work blahhhh. i cant wait to start at express. its so pretty in there. YAY.
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[16 Aug 2004|08:17am] |
yayayay, my face is clearing uppp yayayyy. i cut jeffs hair last night, now he looks even SEXIER! even take a look for yourself!
BEFORE:
( AFTER! )
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[15 Aug 2004|03:50pm] |
i love my frienddd. i dont want him to die. : (
im really worried about him...
FRIEND: MY NOSE IS SO FUNNY RUNNY N SHITTTTTT FRIEND
SHAKEDOWNxxx: CATCH IT!!
FRIEND: ITS NOT LIKE THAT
FRIEND: I SNORTED TOO MANY LINES IN MY LEFT NOSTRIL
FRIEND: RIGHT
FRIEND: SO ITS KINDA DRIPPY
FRIEND: BUT IF I PUT ANYTHING UP THERE
FRIEND: BLOOD COMES OUT
FRIEND: TEH SUX0RZ
SHAKEDOWNxxx: OMGGGGGGGG
SHAKEDOWNxxx: STOP
SHAKEDOWNxxx: !
SHAKEDOWNxxx: I DONT WANT YOU TO DIE
FRIEND: NO WAY
FRIEND: COKE IS GOD
FRIEND: I CANT
FRIEND: IM INVINCIBLE
FRIEND: IM MORE INVINCIBLE THAN SUPERMAN
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[15 Aug 2004|03:33pm] |
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YES. ANNIE IS GONNA COME GET ME ON FRIDAY CUZ SHE WILL HAVE HER LICENSE AND WE ARE GONNA GO SHOPPING AGH! I LOVE HERRRRRR <3333
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[15 Aug 2004|12:52am] |
I learned alot about myself today for some reason. for one, i have really bad karma lately. like REALLY BAD. i hate it. i wish i can change it, but life has been really getting me down. i guess. Two, im so tired of working, i guess i can kind of see my hard work starting to pay off. Jan is still on its way, and i cant wait, its gonna be amazing, i am still really excited about it. Work today was soooo long, and then i found out the show was cancelled, so that really sucked. then aj and ryan picked me up. aj kept almost making us crash LOL, but we were ok, and then we went to see jeff. me and jeff went to mikes house, and waited for aj ryan and dave to get there. so i am thinking to myself all night, "why the fuck couldnt they have just left dave at home? i cant fucking stand him." so heres the third thing i have learned today. i HATE dave. i cant fuckin stand that kid. i could go on all day, but i wont, ill just leave it at that i fuckin hate him. he is a worthless piece of shit, and completly right when he says hes "not worth it" i cant believe i wasted 3 months on that fuck. damnnnnnnnnn. talk about WASTE OF MY LIFE. four. im tired.
so 1, i have decided to start meditating again. i miss that. i used to be so calm.
2, im just going to have to put up with it, and put a postive attitude on. if i keep thinking about how happy ill be when i get to orlando, ill be ok.
3, dave is gone. the only thing i really have to worry about is us having all of the same friends. ill just pretend like hes not there, oh wait, i already do that. ha. oh and dont think your off my shit list amber. im still gonna beat the fuck out of you. : )
4, get some sleep.
and thats just what im gonna do. goodnite all. <333
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[10 Aug 2004|12:01pm] |
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wow i feel so ugly right now.
i just looked in the mirror and realize that there is no regression on my acne at all. i cant fuckin take it any more. NO ONE has acne. me and kristin are the only people i know who have it. i want to lay down and die everytime i look in the fuckin mirror. im supposed to be on my own in jan. its august, and i have 168 dollars. ha ha ha. i dont even have a fuckin car. so im going today, to spend 100 dollars on a facial, b/c if i dont my face will continue to hurt, and ill never meet anyone b/c i am so ugly. and if i do, ill have 68 dollars left! WOO! that means ill never leave this town!
im so blessed.
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you ever get in one of those really sad moods?
im in one right now.
i feel lonely. i miss someone alot, and channing hasnt called me.
patrick doesnt seem to have the time for me ne more, and kristin hates me thanks to dave.
i havent seen jonathan in forever, and all i do is fight with my family. i miss annie. i miss austin!!
i wish i could go back a few months when i was truely happy with the way things were but i cant. and i hate it.
im trying to move on so bad.
i talked to that cute kid jake today. hes reallllly nice.
gotta work now. im off at 8. maybe someone will call me tonight.
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lastnight:
it started off with jon coming over and eating all of my food, haha i love him. then we went and picked up annie!! I WAS SO EXCITED! i love her so much. then we drove all the way back down to spankys to the show. when we got there jon went off to get something to eat with some of his friends, and me and annie hung out with cory rose and allyson. may i just mention that i fuckin love allysn, she is sooo bad ass. we went to get subs, or annie did rather, and we just followed her. walking back to spankys we saw jeff jackie and audrey. so we chatted for a few then walked back to spankys and sat outside and waited for cakes to get there. i looked down the street and the first person i see was dave. yeah. it sucked really bad. i started shaking and stuff. then he mentioned that his heart was beating really fast. it was pretty un comfortable. i didnt even dance to i killed the prom queen cuz i was shaking so bad. i gave patrick a hugggggeeeeeee hug cuz i love him so much, and i just pretended to ignore dave, hoping itd make me feel better. def didnt. then we went inside and watched the bands and shit. me and allyson didnt like the warriors too much, we two stepped for a bit, then we called it quits cuz they were kinda lame. when black my heart was bad ass, i danced really hard to them, and judas cradle was ok. shattered realm didnt go, and obw and ute was pretty bad ass, even though ive seen them both 2398123 million times. me and patrick had so much fun out in the pit last night. with the exception of him breakin his nose again. i kicked some guy in the head who was kneeling down near a table. i felt really bad so i grabbed his head and i was like OMG IM SORRY hahaha. it was funny. i met my LJ friend, she is so bad ass. and as i was talking to her annie walked up and hit this bitch really hard in the face and that was SUPER BAD ASS. it was fuckin funny as hell i ran after then with the whole crowd at spankys and i was like "OH SHIT ANNIE HIT THAT BITCH!" hahahaha. it was fuckin hilarious. i saw this kid jake that i think is soo hot, and i see him all the time at spankys. i got his sn, so i hope he gets on soon.the rest of the show was cool. dave gave me a hug and things were cool after a while. that was nice. i was tryin to change out in the parking lot into my skirt after the show and dave was yellin for everyone to look at my ass. haha i was like NO DAVE! hahaha. then i went home with jeff jackie and audrey. we sang some sweet songs on the way home, and we stopped at mcdonalds in vero. we were all sayong how itd be bad ass if we got the wrong order and got a shit load of fod, and HOLY SHIT. it fuckin happened!!! WE GOT FOOD FOR LIKE 20 PEOPLE!! AND LIKE 5 DRINKS! FOR A DOLLAR!!! hahahaha. we speed out of there. it was croosh.
Today:
me and my mom got up at 7 and left around 830 to go up to the paul mitchel school in orlando. omfg i cant wait to get up there. that is gonna be the best experience of my life. everyone there is sooooo friendly too. the lady took me into a room, and shes like "oh youd fit in here so well!!" hahaha, and then we went into a classroom with a shit load of kids in it and they were all like "HII!!!" it was great. all the fuckin guys who go there have the most amazing hair i have ever seen, they are fuckin GORGEOUS! i cant WAIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! this one really fuckin hot guy with like this black and white fashion hot/mullet/omfghot came up to me and hes like "i reallllly like youre hair, where do you get it done" i was like UHH... hahaha. then i told him. but he was really fuckin hot. today was great. i saw the publix im gonna be workin at and stuff and the apps. omg its gonna be amazing. i came home and im supposed to be gettin calls from bath and body works in the mall and express for jobs. im gettina second job woo! bye guys <3
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